It’s nearly midnight and here I am, all up in my emotions feeling some type of way towards a situation. Everyone has their own insecurities and we all deal with them differently. I have learned my physical insecurities and sort of just let it slide because if I wanted to fix them, I would and if I don’t, I’ll just embrace it. But right now, what I’m feeling is an emotional insecurity.
Making someone my home and making them my happiness was one of the worst things I have ever done to myself. My comfort level is him and I don’t feel comfortable being with someone else. But sometimes I just don’t get how they could just have that physical contact with you, and then decide one day that you don’t turn them on anymore.
I have lost my spark, I don’t feel sexy anymore and I feel completely insecure, and that sucks because I should never let a man define my sexiness. I feel like it’s a battle every day because I’m constantly trying so hard to be sexy for someone who clearly has no sparks for me anymore.
I just don’t understand why all of a sudden I’m unattractive to him.
Why can’t I be the perfect girl for him? Why aren’t I perfect to him anymore?